Secrets, Part 2

*This post might be a bit private and no offense to my mama :(

* Conversation through SMS

Mama : Adik dekat mana ni ?
Me : Tgh teman ija( my cousin) tengok movie * Sorcerer's Apprentice 9:30 pm
Mama: Lambatnya tiket wayang. Dekat mana lagi tu ?
Me : Dalam cinema laa. Kat parade.
Mama : Lain kali nak keluar, keluar awal awal. Dah pukul berapa ni ? Lain kali balik sebelum pukul 8pm.
Me :Pukul 8 ? What ? *Monolog dalaman.
Alaaa. Ni sekali je pun lepak dengan ija. Dia baru je smpai. Dia tgh cuti. Before ni mana ada keluar malam pun.
Mama : Ni bukan kira sekali ke banyak kali. Nanti orang cakap kita tak elok. Dah laa keluar dgn anak orang lain. Nanti dorg salahkan kita.
Me : Ye. kejap lagi adik balik.


That is the first time my mama got mad at me. I felt like crying. I did. Before this, I always get out, lepak sana sini dia tak cakap apa apa pun. Well, atleast laa curfew pukul 12am aite ? Ni pukul 8?Hmmmm. I was actually innocent that day. I didn't bought the ticket but my cousin and her boyfriend did. I dah bayar tiket, takkan laa nak balik terus je. Totally tak worth it. Dah laa movie baru. Haishh.

After the movie was over, I rushed back home and succeed to arrive home at 12.30am. She had fallen asleep. Just my sister je. But I'm too dissapointed that I just straight went upstairs and locked myself in my room. The next day, I tend to wake up late and went downstairs at 1.40pm. She was doing her work at the table and I just ate my brunch quitely while watching Kimora: Life In The Fab Lane Marathon. I tend to sulk.

Then, maybe living and raising me for 18 years , she knew I was still upset about yesterday so she talked to me, acted like nothing happened yesterday. My heart was a bit relieved and cooled down. Do You know why I was Upset ? It's not about that I couldnt lepak and hang out with some friends, that's not the reason.

The truth is that I felt like suddently she didn't trust me that I can take care of myself and not do something stupid like ended up testing pee sticks in the toilet. Gosh No ! I would never do that mama. You just need to trust me. Eventhough I currently staying at S. Alam, it wouldn't change anything.
You have to trust me ! Nasib baik I belajar kat Puncak Alam je, belum UK ke US lagi. Then what are you going to do if I am going to US or UK ? U would object and reject the offer just because u can't trust me ? Just trust me and I will be fine. Just need you to hear this, I am always safe because whenever I set my foot at, I believe that you can trust me. But I know, you do all that because you love me. And I would never ever do something to hurt you because you've been through a lot and I would never do anything to add up to the list. It's too painful to watch you cry. Believe me, I'll make you happy once I'm afford to :)

Maybe, she didn't realise that her eldest daughter have turned 18 years old on the previous 14th May. That's what all parents out there would definitely think when they don't let their kids running around the city. Because they'll be worried.

Noorain bt Yusuff.
Saya sayangg Mama :) Terima kasih kerana masih bersama saya :)

p/s: Maximum Sincerity =.='