Burning The Midnight Oil Wouldn't Save Anyone

I've once lied to myself. I told myself to stay up late at night and burned the midnight oil. I tried to sleep not less than 2AM. Yes, I slept in the evening, trying to cover up my lost sleeping hours by night. And then, here comes the cheating part. I tried to do everything in slow motion. I onlined. I blogged. I talked. I ate biscuits. I drank coffee. I walked back and fourth to open up my eyes and I even watched a few movies and videos to kill my sleepiness which I thought would only take a few 10 minutes that ended up a few hours. And then after I finished doing nothing but wasting my time and done a few maths questions, Ohh yess, it's already 2AM in the morning. Now I can sleep. The next morning, I felt great that I slept late last night, at 2AM++ because sometimes it took me a few minutes to sleep soundly. I told everyone I slept at 2AM. People really though that I really did study and done my homework. But, for real, I DIDN'T. I lied to myself psycologically.


That's why it's better to sleep at normal hours than staying up late at night doing nothing and wasting my time. Mama always told me not to waste my time and cheating myself this way. I am not that smart if I didn't study. I don't get this genius brain from birth, but I have to work my ass off to earn it. The feedback, it's eating my marks slowly. But now, I'm trying not to lie to myself for my future, for Mini Cooper, for my kids. HAHA ;) We aren't young anymore to play around with our future, I am not young anymore to play with my future ;) So, let's make a CHANGE for a better life.



XOXO